Tuesday, December 2, 2008

"there's gotta be more to life...


...than chasin' down every temporary high to satisfy me..."
so i went to my exam/interview yesterday to try and get into my fashion industry practices course. i'm kinda of having mixed feelings about it. i thought i did pretty well in the aptitude test, alot of the girls there were abit intimidating but i didn't let that get to me this time. i was one of the first to go into my interview. eeek!...and that's when my little happy positive bubble burst...
so i was told, not in these exact words but along the lines of "these are quite simple outfits, you have basic sewing skills". hmm i know i'm still learning and everything i do is pretty much self taught, but was that really all they could gather about me and my potential? *sigh* my creativeness was also questioned and all of a sudden i felt rather discouraged. i've also been thinking, how am i ever going to fit into this industry? it's competitive, brutal, bitchy, intimidating - everything i'm not! and to add to that, i have no idea where my parcel to NZ is?! it's been over two weeks since i sent the stock, and the people at Australia Post are far less than helpful! the stupid lady at the post office practically laughed at me and asked how it got sent to America instead of NZ, how am i supposed to know i left the package with them?! i was so excited about stocking overseas, my first boutique debut, and they mess up the delivery! see what i mean about the high's and low's of being me? i'm feeling even more uninspired right now...
 

2 comments:

katiecrackernuts said...

Don't give up. Just don't give up.
My stepdaughter is 21. She didn't do well in her HSC and was kicking herself for it. She got a traineeship in an RSL and was paid shit money and then decided to ditch the traineeship and earn the casual wages that the hospitality industry offered while building an art portfolio with the intention of doing fashion design at Tafe. The first interview knocked her. The experience sounds similar to yours. The second year she was better prepared and got to the stage of going in for a drawing test. She was knocked again. People took in fabrics and paints and she took in a sketch book and pencils. No go. The third year, and nearing her 21st birthday, she applied to uni to do mature age entry fine arts. Whaddya know, she got in and is happy as larry and learning that maybe fashion wasn't her thing, but photography and curating is. I reckon the RSL environment toughened her up and gave her motivation to keep going. It wasn't a life she could see stretching in front of her and she worked hard to get out. Now the pay there is a means to an end and she's proving better than the out-of-school kids in her course because she's got some runs on the board. She's already seen what an industry knockback looks like and she's gone in with her eyes open. Everything that's happening to you now has a purpose. You're learning from the NZ experience, from the interview. Keep learning. It's steeing you somewhere good.

maie maie said...

that's so refreshing to hear. i don't know many aspiring fashion designers personally so it's hard to share thoughts with people. thank you for your kind words!